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Or just like really digging deeper within myself and realizing he really is who I want to be.

Like living with 12 other guys and still just being like literally all I want is my boyfriend right now.

I don't know.

I think I just learned love is everything and I just want to be with you for the rest of my life.

Yeah, we don't want to rush anything.

Yeah, totally.

It's like everything she's saying, it's very accurate.

The moments where I would get either like a text or a phone call from my ex-partner, not that it was anything to hide from Leah, but I guess I didn't, I saw it as I didn't want it to interfere between our relationship.

Because it was always so minimal.

It was always something to do with our child over like such like mundane things that like now I can I can look back and understand that like I would look at my phone and see a text message or a missed call, but I wouldn't address it right then and there.

I wouldn't really include her in that part of my life.

I can say, I guess.

So that's why I can understand why she would feel so left out or out of the loop or like I'm trying to hide or kind of be like just hiding things from her.

Mainly because my ex-partner, they're a different person.

And I didn't want that part of my past life to show up in something so great and so healthy and in this relationship with Leah.

I guess back then, like a year and a bit ago,

I didn't really admit the reality of the type of relationship that I had with my ex.

Which was?

It was very abusive, like emotionally and mentally.

So I learned, I mean, I've learned recently through a lot of counseling in the past couple of months.