Coleman Ruiz

doing a job I didn't like.

But there's some, people are not wrong, you know, about buds.

There's some very difficult days where you do start to wonder, like, is this really worth it?

And I never once thought about quitting.

It never crossed my mind because I just had these other things that I really had to do for myself and my life, or else I felt like I was going to have nothing.

And so, again, I don't think operating out of fear is particularly adaptive, but sometimes it, you know, the bit in your teeth is useful.

Yes.

Which is super important for our line of work.

Like for me, again, I can only speak for myself.

For me, it was the wild fuck you factor.

Like you have to...

There's just a nasty reality of the work we had to do.

You know, I was in from 98 until 2011.

In the SEAL teams from 98 until 2011.

Everybody knows what was happening between 9-11 and then.

It's not that it didn't stop happening.

I know, you know, from my own experience, from 03 through 2010 was extremely intense.

And...

Obviously, the military has rules and we need rules and you follow the laws of armed conflict and you follow the rules of engagement.

There's no question about that ever.