Colm Tóibín

And he saw something, he really did, early on, and said, there's something wrong with you.

you do need to see me.

I said, Ivor, leave me alone.

And he would, just no matter what was going on, including a party or a very noisy dinner, he would look at me and say, when did your father die?

Tell me that again.

I said, Ivor, eat your dinner.

But he did lure me eventually into some sort of treatment.

So I went back to him.

saying, you know, the last time I avoided you and, you know, but eventually you trapped me, you know, but this time I need you.

And I went to the house.

It was a big long room in Dublin I was familiar with from social events.

He...

Yeah, he hypnotized me.

And everything in the story about the hypnosis is what I remember.

There's nothing made up.

You see, you can't falsify that.

I think that, I know fiction is fiction and there are no rules.

You can make things up.

But for me to write that down, it was so personal and so important that I wrote down exactly what happened.

And he didn't understand it.