Corley Spell

I just didn't.

I just didn't want to go down that dark rabbit trail of thoughts because I think that's when the enemy starts tormenting you is in your thoughts.

What if?

What is that information going to do for me?

I was like, it's not going to serve me in any way.

I mean, that's what the Bible, the Word tells us.

It doesn't add a day.

You know, I'm not going to sit and worry.

And because it was my second time, I just feel like the Lord prepared me for that moment because, I mean, I remember talking to families and, you know, our pastor, our family members and our pastor at the time, and

And just saying, no, I'm going to be healed.

Like God's going to walk me through this.

It's going to be fine.

She's very positive.

And Ben being like, you know, she's, yes, she's so positive, but it is really hard.

And I remember I had to like,

come on and usually he's the positive optimistic one but in that moment he was looking to me and saying like oh my gosh like her faith is so strong right now and I just it's not me like it was totally the Lord like I just I don't want any of this to be like oh she's so strong it was the Lord was my strength is my strength and that's how we walked through it and then after there after that it got really really bad

Yeah.

I know.

And I was like, well, what's the point of the cross?

Like, what He accomplished on the cross if I'm not going to believe that by His stripes I'm healed?