Courtney Klein

So I went back to counseling.

I got diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety.

kind of went through some like ups and downs where like my husband could like slam on the brakes sometimes and it would like take me back to slamming on the brakes and my dad you know flying past me like it was just like I was struggling a little bit and it was time for me to focus on myself and I had no idea how to do that because I had just been

making sure just trying to make sure my dad was okay all the time and my mom was happy and like just going back and forth and I think I had just been in fight or flight for so long that like I didn't know what to do with myself like I

Legitimately did not know who I was and I mean there's also like a young mom Like you have to give everything to your kids like that's kind of normal If you didn't have the whole situation with your parents, you know, it's hard to you you lose your identity as a mom That's a very common thing and it's good because that means you're being a good mom but like you lose who you are and like, you know, I think I just got to a point where I was like

I don't even know what I like to do.

I don't even know what I want to do with my life.

I'm not going to be a stay-at-home mom forever.

What do I want to do?

What do I want my life to look like?

So I feel like all...

Anything that would happen to me moving forward, I kind of had this narrative.

Like, I'm not good enough.

I'm the reason that, you know, there are catastrophic mistakes.

I'm not going to measure up to who I want to be.

You know, I'd look at people on social media and be like, I'm not ever going to be that.

Like, I can't.

I'm that's not me.

I'm not good enough.

Like I had this narrative and I let that narrative like take over entirely.