Courtney Klein

So we had him cremated.

I went into the darkest depression I've ever gone into.

And I carried that same narrative of just like,

this is it like nothing good happens to me there you know had been things in between those things that like i carried that narrative and i gained so much weight and when i say i lost myself i lost myself ended up getting pregnant again unexpectedly and was like the baby's due date was christmas day

which was mind blowing to me.

And I ended up losing that baby at 12 weeks.

So I had to have a DNC.

And I remember just being like, we went in for the ultrasound to make sure everything was okay.

And there was no heartbeat.

And I was just like, this is my life.

Yeah.

Like, what is happening?

Like, why do I feel like nothing can go right?

Like, and I carried that narrative.

Well, it's hard not to, I think.

Yeah, like, I just felt like not only was I inadequate, but my body is now inadequate.

It can't even carry a baby.

Like, those are the things that, like, that's how I was talking to myself.

And that became my personality.

Like...