Courtney Klein

I was a personal trainer at the time.

I quit my job.

I was like, I don't want to go do anything.

I'm not.

I don't want to leave the house.

I gained even more weight.

ended up finding out that I had a blood clotting disorder only when I'm pregnant.

So I pretty much wrote that off and was like, I'll never get pregnant again because I hate needles and I cannot give myself an injection in my stomach twice a day.

And that's how I would stay pregnant if I wanted to do that.

Um, and then I got pregnant with Letty and I was like,

not like I just can't do this again like there was no it's like it's not something that you can explain to someone entirely unless they felt like a loss and then got pregnant again because it's like you want to be excited but like I

that's ripped away from you because you've experienced what it feels like to have that excitement, and then it just all goes away.

Yes, it is.

You don't want to get your hopes up.

It's like you're protecting your emotions.

Yeah, absolutely.

So I was just beside myself.

I didn't even tell my husband I was pregnant.

That's how I was just like... I remember leaving the desk in the bathroom,

And I went back to bed and he got up to go to work and he texted me and was like, are you pregnant?