Cyan Banister

Yeah.

Yeah.

When it happened, I just... surrendered, it was one of these things where I was just like, I have no control over this situation. I have to trust that the medical doctors that are coming to me that are the best there is at UCSF hospital are going to do what's right. And all I have to do is sit here and try to maintain my calm and try to find all the joy in all of it.

When it happened, I just... surrendered, it was one of these things where I was just like, I have no control over this situation. I have to trust that the medical doctors that are coming to me that are the best there is at UCSF hospital are going to do what's right. And all I have to do is sit here and try to maintain my calm and try to find all the joy in all of it.

When the students were coming and sticking lights in my eyes and lining up down the hallway because they'd never seen an edema in an eye before, I was like, yeah, line up. Come look. Come look. Everybody come look. I've got diamonds in my eyes. Come. It's obviously precious. You want to see it. Every time I did an MRI, I found it joyful.

When the students were coming and sticking lights in my eyes and lining up down the hallway because they'd never seen an edema in an eye before, I was like, yeah, line up. Come look. Come look. Everybody come look. I've got diamonds in my eyes. Come. It's obviously precious. You want to see it. Every time I did an MRI, I found it joyful.

Every time I had to do a blood draw, I would just sit there and know that I was contributing to medical science because my stroke was one in 5 million a year. It was even rarer than that because I was young. So it's one of these things where you could either just say like, this is it, I'm going to die and cry.

Every time I had to do a blood draw, I would just sit there and know that I was contributing to medical science because my stroke was one in 5 million a year. It was even rarer than that because I was young. So it's one of these things where you could either just say like, this is it, I'm going to die and cry.

Or you just say like, you know what, what if these are my last moments, I may as well make the best of them. So I did. And I honestly believe, granted, I can't prove it. But I believe that that's what helped and aided in my recovery and why I recovered so quickly.

Or you just say like, you know what, what if these are my last moments, I may as well make the best of them. So I did. And I honestly believe, granted, I can't prove it. But I believe that that's what helped and aided in my recovery and why I recovered so quickly.

Why is it so rare? I think we've lost touch with our child minds. Inside of us is a child yearning to be free. That's cosplaying as an adult. I think we, over time, build our personality. We get told what we can and can't do. We wear certain clothes. They're just costumes.

Why is it so rare? I think we've lost touch with our child minds. Inside of us is a child yearning to be free. That's cosplaying as an adult. I think we, over time, build our personality. We get told what we can and can't do. We wear certain clothes. They're just costumes.

If you really think about it, you really could wake up tomorrow and dress as SpongeBob SquarePants if you want to, but something's keeping you from doing it. And it's really just a perspective shift. For me, I go out and stare at four-leaf clovers. I haven't found one yet, but I go out looking for them. Sorry, I don't stare at them. I go out looking for them.

If you really think about it, you really could wake up tomorrow and dress as SpongeBob SquarePants if you want to, but something's keeping you from doing it. And it's really just a perspective shift. For me, I go out and stare at four-leaf clovers. I haven't found one yet, but I go out looking for them. Sorry, I don't stare at them. I go out looking for them.

Did you know that there's a four-leaf clover in every 10,000 clovers? So your chances of finding one are real. It's not fake. It's not made up. And children, when you show them a four-leaf clover and the pattern of a four-leaf clover, find them within like 20 seconds.

Did you know that there's a four-leaf clover in every 10,000 clovers? So your chances of finding one are real. It's not fake. It's not made up. And children, when you show them a four-leaf clover and the pattern of a four-leaf clover, find them within like 20 seconds.

They're able to find them because their mind is not clouded with all of this, frankly, garbage that we grownups carry around with us. And so for me, I'm constantly looking to reconnect with my child self, with the spirit that's inside of me that yearns to be free, that yearns to learn about everything. I think a lot of people take for granted what's around them.

They're able to find them because their mind is not clouded with all of this, frankly, garbage that we grownups carry around with us. And so for me, I'm constantly looking to reconnect with my child self, with the spirit that's inside of me that yearns to be free, that yearns to learn about everything. I think a lot of people take for granted what's around them.

They think they've got it all figured out. There's like, there's nothing new to learn. even about maybe your bedroom. But if you look around with curiosity about your bedroom, I bet you with a new set of perspectives could see your room in a whole different way. You could see your backyard in a whole different way. You could see your friendships in a whole different way.

They think they've got it all figured out. There's like, there's nothing new to learn. even about maybe your bedroom. But if you look around with curiosity about your bedroom, I bet you with a new set of perspectives could see your room in a whole different way. You could see your backyard in a whole different way. You could see your friendships in a whole different way.