Cyan Banister
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346 appearances
3 recordings
2 series
first heard Jan 2025
last heard Apr 2025
Cyan Banister’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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And I can tell you that each one of us is walking a very thin razor's edge between sanity and insanity at all times. Serotonin regulates a lot of how we perceive reality. I had a surge of serotonin in this lightning bolt like no other. It was basically this surge of energy that went from the base of my spine out the top of my skull. And suddenly everything in the world looked different. Everything.
I started viewing signs differently. I started viewing art differently, conversations I was having with people differently. And I realized everything around us is a projection of our perception minds. We, when we're born, when we are born, we come online with like going back to parts work and things like that. But when we're born, we come online with about four distinct things.
systems that come online. And then through stimulus of interacting in the world, we develop a personality. And we think this personality is fixed. We think it can't be changed. But it turns out it absolutely can be changed. Many parts of it can. How I had the spiritual awakening was the realization that all the trauma in my past was a construct of my imagination.
That basically, yeah, it happened. But it happened like a dream happened, like a nightmare. A nightmare you wake up from and it's gone and you're relieved. You're like, oh, that was just a dream.
Well, it turns out trauma is also just a dream because if you can overcome it and you can get past it and you can move forward, you have to realize that that thing, when you spin it up in your mind, creates all kinds of hormones that get released that shape your reality and how you see the world. We forget that we're an animal that has hormones and a mind.
And then there's this really special thing called consciousness, right? And so I believe that consciousness is kind of like an operating system and it brings these parts of us online that benefited us at one point that no longer benefit us because they have jobs. I think of them as kind of like processes that come online to assist you.
They're like cron jobs and they're like, I'm here to assist you. And we don't know to put them away and tell them that they don't have that job anymore. They don't need to do that anymore. So once I let go of this huge amount of trauma and I realized that it just didn't matter that these things happened to me in the past, what matters is literally right now.
And you hear people say this and you wonder, what does it mean when they say this? And I always wondered it. I was like, what does it mean? When you have the true realization, it's almost like it's written in your DNA, right? what that really, really means, then you start to let go of so much. And when you let go, all of a sudden you realize, oh, life isn't so hard. It's actually quite easy.
And I just have to trust myself and I have to trust my intuition and I have to just be. And once you learn how just to be, life gets a lot more simple. All of a sudden, everything you ever wished for in your life just starts coming true. It becomes effortless. It's really weird. It's really super weird. And the only thing that changed in my life was having faith in something higher than myself.
That was it. This is why when you ask me what sort of insight or brilliance or whatever led to whatever, it's too easy for our ego mind to take credit for everything. Something gave me that feeling that said, you ought to go deeper into this. You ought to do this. You've got to take this risk. You've got to jump right now.
I guarantee you, if you talk to a lot of different people, they'll say, I don't know why I did this. I just had a feeling. And I now believe thoroughly in that feeling. And I believe that that feeling is the universe or God, whatever word you want to put into it. And it helps guide me.
And now that I don't egotistically attach myself to it, I am just a much happier person and everything is just falling into place.
Bill Murray is my spirit animal. About 20 years ago, I saw a film called Lost in Translation. And I thought, this is a person who feels so real. He's not acting. He is, but he isn't. I looked at his eyes in that performance and I saw a man who was suffering, who was dealing with some real life shit that was coming through the film.
And not only that, but I felt my own suffering and I felt a connection to that suffering. It's kind of like when you look at a painting and you see yourself. I saw myself. Bill Murray. And so I did a Google search just to see what he was up to and then saw that he was appearing at people's parties and was spotted at somebody's dorm room or something like that.
And he went into their house and just started washing their dishes. So it started this movement where people started putting out banners saying, Bill Murray, please come here. Welcome here. I thought to myself, What kind of man like him puts themselves into the general population like that? And I identified with it.
I told you earlier, I go to these conventions and I put myself on purpose in uncomfortable positions just to absorb humanity. And I realized, you know, if you're... Brad Pitt, or if you're George Clooney, it's hard to be these people. Everywhere you go, you're recognized. Somebody wants to take a picture with you. Someone wants to touch you. Why would you subject yourself to this on purpose?
And I became obsessed with that question. I started thinking about it nonstop. What drives this man? I ultimately decided it was spiritual, that in order for him to maintain his humanity, he decided to start teaching us all how to live. Now, if you watch what he's doing, he's showing you that even the act of doing dishes can be a joyful thing as much as going to a party.
Going back to curiosity and joy, you can find joy in the most mundane of things if you try. And so he's showing us a really beautiful thing. It's not about the sort of prank of showing up at a house and washing dishes. It's about showing you that dishes are a fun thing.
If you walk down the street and you just suddenly start dancing with someone, you're showing them... It's almost like they had a weird dream when they run into him. He'll take your french fry off your plate and he'll say, no one will ever believe you. I love that story. And I think that... I want Bill Murray to live forever.
But when he leaves this earth, this go-round, tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands of stories of Bill Murray are going to come pouring out. And that man's going to look like a saint. He is a saint of sorts. He's a very difficult person to work with, I've heard, because he demands the best of people. He expects people to show up and give 100%.
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