Dan Rankin (aka Trials)

So there's a recognition that there's an issue there.

And best keep out of it.

Yes.

What did going sober do for you to begin with?

Did it sort of bring in a lot of fear or something the opposite than that?

Was it more like a sense of clarity and peace?

I don't know.

Now that I'm here, it's definitely that, for sure.

But it was really confronting first because I have the type of brain that doesn't really switch off very easily, which is, again, why alcohol was so...

sought after for me just to slow down a little bit.

Having that speed brain sober was really difficult at the start because...

You know when you've had a bad night or you've drunk or something and you have all these postmortems the next day, oh, man, I shouldn't have said that.

I have 20 years of those, you know what I mean?

Like, oh, man, I did that.

Oh, my God.

And although I made all those apology texts at the time and, you know, we've gotten through all those things, it's like, who was I?

What was I doing to let myself be the worst version of myself for nothing?

To have that one bit of flow state freedom, I just –

traded it all for that like it didn't make any sense to me the more and more I thought about what I got out of that what I got out of giving myself to that it was not a fair exchange and I had a lot of time to do this introspective

deep dive on not only myself, but my folks as well.