Dave Moran

So I did poses in front of the mirror. I did poses in front of my extremely indulgent wife. I went online hoping to find reassurance because I was getting more and more frightened as the date approached. And I did not find reassurance online. Instead, I found advice such as, if you're a male model, whatever you do, for God's sakes, don't think of any sexual thoughts.

And if you do think of any sexual thoughts, immediately start counting backwards from 100 while thinking about penguins. And so that didn't help me. And so we showed up. I showed up on the day at the appointed time with my bag, with my robe and my slippers. And Kathy, the instructor, showed me to a room where I changed. And I came back out. And the students filed in. And I looked at them.

And if you do think of any sexual thoughts, immediately start counting backwards from 100 while thinking about penguins. And so that didn't help me. And so we showed up. I showed up on the day at the appointed time with my bag, with my robe and my slippers. And Kathy, the instructor, showed me to a room where I changed. And I came back out. And the students filed in. And I looked at them.

And if you do think of any sexual thoughts, immediately start counting backwards from 100 while thinking about penguins. And so that didn't help me. And so we showed up. I showed up on the day at the appointed time with my bag, with my robe and my slippers. And Kathy, the instructor, showed me to a room where I changed. And I came back out. And the students filed in. And I looked at them.

And they were a varied lot, all ages from 18 or 19 to people older than me. And Kathy gave some instruction. She said, tonight we're going to start with some gesture poses, some two-minute action-type poses. And then she looked straight at me and says, Dave, whenever you're ready. That's my cue.

And they were a varied lot, all ages from 18 or 19 to people older than me. And Kathy gave some instruction. She said, tonight we're going to start with some gesture poses, some two-minute action-type poses. And then she looked straight at me and says, Dave, whenever you're ready. That's my cue.

And they were a varied lot, all ages from 18 or 19 to people older than me. And Kathy gave some instruction. She said, tonight we're going to start with some gesture poses, some two-minute action-type poses. And then she looked straight at me and says, Dave, whenever you're ready. That's my cue.

And so I stood up shaking, my hands shaking violently, took the robe off, kicked the slippers off, and assumed a pose reminiscent, I hope, of Descobulus, the discus thrower from ancient Greece. And as I stood there with my imaginary discus, every neuron in my brain screamed, grab the robe and run. But I managed to fight it off. And after about 30 seconds, the heart rate came down.

And so I stood up shaking, my hands shaking violently, took the robe off, kicked the slippers off, and assumed a pose reminiscent, I hope, of Descobulus, the discus thrower from ancient Greece. And as I stood there with my imaginary discus, every neuron in my brain screamed, grab the robe and run. But I managed to fight it off. And after about 30 seconds, the heart rate came down.

And so I stood up shaking, my hands shaking violently, took the robe off, kicked the slippers off, and assumed a pose reminiscent, I hope, of Descobulus, the discus thrower from ancient Greece. And as I stood there with my imaginary discus, every neuron in my brain screamed, grab the robe and run. But I managed to fight it off. And after about 30 seconds, the heart rate came down.

And I started to feel great. And then I did another pose where I was throwing a ball. And I did another pose where I was catching something. I did another pose where I'm reaching for the ceiling. I had a break, and then I had a long pose, and then a pose where I get to lay down for a while. And at the end, Kathy said, you were wonderful. Can you come back again? And I did.

And I started to feel great. And then I did another pose where I was throwing a ball. And I did another pose where I was catching something. I did another pose where I'm reaching for the ceiling. I had a break, and then I had a long pose, and then a pose where I get to lay down for a while. And at the end, Kathy said, you were wonderful. Can you come back again? And I did.

And I started to feel great. And then I did another pose where I was throwing a ball. And I did another pose where I was catching something. I did another pose where I'm reaching for the ceiling. I had a break, and then I had a long pose, and then a pose where I get to lay down for a while. And at the end, Kathy said, you were wonderful. Can you come back again? And I did.

And eight and a half years later, I'm still doing it. I still model once or twice a month at community colleges. and local art centers. And so I'm so glad that I overcame the fear because I love the feeling of meditation, of losing myself while staring at a wall while people are drawing me. And I love the fact that this face, this body, can produce beautiful art. Thank you.

And eight and a half years later, I'm still doing it. I still model once or twice a month at community colleges. and local art centers. And so I'm so glad that I overcame the fear because I love the feeling of meditation, of losing myself while staring at a wall while people are drawing me. And I love the fact that this face, this body, can produce beautiful art. Thank you.

And eight and a half years later, I'm still doing it. I still model once or twice a month at community colleges. and local art centers. And so I'm so glad that I overcame the fear because I love the feeling of meditation, of losing myself while staring at a wall while people are drawing me. And I love the fact that this face, this body, can produce beautiful art. Thank you.