Dave Mustaine
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411 appearances
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first heard May 2025
last heard May 2025
Dave Mustaine’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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I always have this picture of clouds and a gate and you walk through it and then it's like I think, do I want to go to heaven? No, I want to spend more time with my wife because if I go to heaven and I'm not with her, if I go to heaven and we're not together as a couple anymore, that would make me sad. And I get real emotional when I think about that. So I don't want to talk about it.
Well, See, I loved my dad. I didn't know what was going on. I was still really young. I remember to this day when we were living on one particular street in Costa Mesa, and my mom and my dad were still together. They must have tried another time, because I don't believe I was four at the time. I believe I was a little older. But they for sure got divorced at four.
And I remember kissing him goodnight and his stubble on his face, and he always smelled like a pipe. like cherry vanilla pipe. So I grew up to love that smell.
Now, the things that I was told about my dad that I never saw was that my dad had slashed on my mom's tires so she couldn't get away, that he had cut his hands and he rubbed his blood all over my mom's face, and that he'd smacked her a few times and spit in her face. What do I know? Do I think that's real? Probably is. It probably is. Do I wish I knew? Yeah.
But do I know now after going through treatment so many times that A lot of times when people are in the throes of spirits or medication or street drugs, any kind of thing like that, the whole reason that people do anything like that is to break the reality. just to have a momentary break in reality so that you can feel anything but what you're really feeling right now.
I just want to feel something different. I don't know if I want to go up or go down or go sideways. I just want to feel something different. I hate my life. I hate my job. I hate my relationship and I have nothing to live for. And I know I don't want to kill myself because I'm afraid of killing myself.
And the choices sit there and, you know, just be miserable or someone will come around and say like, Hey man, let's have a drink. And it's usually how it starts. A drink, another drink, another drink. And if you're someone like me, the reason why I don't drink hard liquor is because once I get to the point where I take one and I go, ah, the second one I'm going to go, oh.
And the third one I'm going to go, whoops. There's just no place in my life right now for that. I'll see people when they're in our presence, meet and greets, concerts, stuff like that, and they'll be clearly inebriated, and we'll try and be.
real considerate of that and make sure that they're being handled in a proper way because sometimes they say stuff that makes them look like they're an aggressor but they're just a rambunctious fan who's intoxicated so back to the thing with my dad there was those stories that I had heard but then again I go back to the same thing I said previously about I don't know why they didn't try and
take him to a treatment facility because he was a vet. He was in the Army. I know he had a problem with the VA. And I know he had some kind of disease. He had gout. That was one of the things he had. And he had some other kind of diseases because when he passed away, I went to his apartment and I found his Masonic ring. And then I...
found these jars that were full of medication, and they were big jars. They were like peanut butter-sized jars, not the little ones you get from the pharmacy. They're big. So whatever he was dealing with, he had enough medication there to last, in my estimation, a very long time unless he was eating them like candy. When did he pass? How old were you?
I was 17 when he died, and he had been working in a bar. He was working for National Cash Register at the time. He went from being the West Coast branch manager of Bank of America to being a guy that worked on cash registers because of his alcoholism. I'm sure that that was unbearable for him. So he's in a bar, he's working on a cash register. They said he fell off a stool.
All I know is that he was in a bar and his head hit the ground. Whatever transpired between him walking through the front door and him walking out in a stretcher,
is it's an enigma to me but he had a mass cerebral hemorrhage and he was in the hospital my sister called me up and they said daddy's in the hospital you need to come now and all i had for transportation at the time was a moped because my mom had left me and i that's the and i took the moped with my surfboard down to the beach every day that's all i needed transportation for but
I got the call and I grabbed a bottle of whiskey. It was this stuff called Old Granddad. It was awful. And I started driving down Pacific Coast Highway from Huntington Beach to Costa Mesa to go to the hospital where my dad was. He was already dead. He was in a coma. And he was in the fetal position.
And I walked into my sister Suzanne, the middle one, because you're going to end up just like Daddy. And I hated her from that moment on. Before then, I didn't hate her. I was confused why she had ostracized me. But when she said that, I just figured, you're just rotten. And I'm not going to have anything to do with you anymore. And we stayed out of touch for a very long time.
Well, the funny thing was when my mom moved out, I, I had, um, called him up and, uh, it was the first year. And I, I, like I said, it was 17 and, um, I had, uh, it was, it was father's day and I called him up and I said, Hey dad, I'm living on my own now, and I'd really like to come down and see you for Father's Day. And he said he'd really like that.
So I went down, and I saw his apartment, and it was just bare bones. And I opened up his fridge, and there was a piece of meat in there on a plate, like a pot roast, and nothing else. And at the time, I didn't put everything together that this is not acceptable. This is not okay. This is my dad. What's going on here? I just went down and I figured this is the first step.
because it's the first time I'd ever seen my dad in a neutral territory where my mom wasn't saying her mantra, which was, you're gonna go live with your father. So I was always threatened with my father at the end of the sentence. You know, you're gonna get your head shaved with your father. Anything like that stupid shit, they would just say, you're gonna get this with your father.
And when they would say I was going to go move with them, after a while, I started to fear that. And I needed to find out for myself. And I went and I met him. I saw him for the man that he was. He was a sick man. And he wasn't weak by any means. He was sick. What was the conversation like? It was very, very shallow. It was very strained. I think he knew how badly he had
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