Davina Rankin

But from the minute it started, it was like everything felt so good.

It was like the edge of orgasm for six hours.

But it was so hard for me to sit in because I was like, but don't you want me to purge?

Don't you want me to work hard?

Like, do I need to unpack some trauma?

Like, surely it can't be this.

Honestly, being like, surely it can't be this good.

Something bad is going to happen in any minute now.

And what she was showing me, she's like, wow.

Like you say you want all of these things.

You say you want this beautiful, pleasurable life.

You're teaching people how to live in their bliss and all this stuff.

But here I'm giving it to you on a silver platter.

Can you handle it?

And it was so uncomfortable.

I had to go through all of this conditioning and these beliefs and these stories that I told myself for decades.

30-something years of that I was only worthy, I could only receive if I was giving in return.

But it's no.

There is so much to be grateful for and there's so much pleasure in the world that you get to just have, but it's like we choose not to.

We choose to struggle.