Dee Salmin

Like, I did have a lot of fun.

It was funny.

It was for the plot.

It was for the plot.

It was great.

But I think, like, on reflection, and that's, you know, the space that I was in when I was in COVID, and even just for writing this book, I was like, yeah, but, like,

I thought I was so, like, I was like this woman in hookup culture.

I was so empowered.

But then on reflection, I was like,

Most of those guys treated me like shit.

You know what I mean?

Yeah, and I gave them a lot of air time.

And I gave them, yeah, and it's like they probably didn't care whether I lived or died.

And I spent months agonising, agonising over them and like, you know.

Psychoanalysing them.

Psychoanalysing it with my friends and like, you know, joking about like the fact that they'd play their album to me when I'd go to hook up with them.

Like just stuff like, you know, and it's like this stuff is funny but I think at some point like –

Each to their own, but at some point I got tired of it and I just realised that so much of that was actually just...

and especially the sex, like a lot of it was just centred around their pleasure and like I might have found it empowering at the time to like have sex, like men have sex and, you know, I can participate and hook up culture and not get feelings but like in hindsight the sex that I had like wasn't very pleasurable and centred around their needs and it was never discussed about like what I wanted or my desires or...

And I think that like, yeah, I write about in the book, like some people really love that.