Devin

I don't actually think she's going to leave, and she's not going to say that, but I think the problem is

based on how our relationship goes, she's never going to ever say she's all in because she has to have that like over my head.

Cause she's been using that for several years.

Like I could leave if you don't do X, Y, Z. So I feel like if I bring up the conversation, like, Hey, let's resurrect this terrible conversation from a few months ago.

She'll just be like, Oh, I mean, obviously I'm in, but like, you know, I don't know.

Maybe a year from now I'll be unhappy.

So like, she'll never give me any resolution to it.

That's why I don't bring it up.

Cause it's like, all right.

I mean, maybe the other part of that, and just to finish this point is,

And I said this to her, if we go forward and we're not having another baby, I understand it's going to change the family picture that you had in your mind, but there'll be a season of grieving in your life, which I'll be, I'm all in to help you with and walk with you through that.

So I don't know if this is like, okay, she's kind of getting to acceptance her own way and she's in her grieving process, but how long do I let that go before I go, Hey, you know,

We can't live in an affectionate-less relationship forever because we're normal day-to-day, but there's just no affection on her part.

It's just like, no, done.

She's kind of checked out that way.

So it's just odd.

Yeah, I think that's completely true.

And to kind of give you a little more depth on that.

she, she's created this devious way in which she doesn't say like, I don't know if she actually said directly, I believe, but she, she very strongly like intimates that.

And she knows that that's my greatest fear.