Dr. John Delony

Then there is the, I'm going to grieve it like crazy.

And that energy I have, that expression, that power that's inside of me, where else is that going to be channeled?

How am I going to make meaning and purpose of this?

So, so, so, so much here.

And sorry, I couldn't just wave a magic wand on this one.

And sorry, I don't have a good lived experience here.

I haven't had this conversation before.

This one's out of my depths.

But I would sit down with a therapist and say, I'm not leaving him.

I need some path forward because I do think he's a great man who is incapable of giving me this part of my life.

And I'm not going to leave him.

So I'm going to grieve it.

And I'm going to realize that my cage is locked from the inside and I'm going to step out of it.

Or I'm going to really get down into my bones and realize, I think he's, I think he's doing this to me.

And I'm going to act accordingly there because then it's an act of fidelity.

It's an act of, or an act of infidelity.

Somebody's willfully withholding and willfully not doing the work they can do to become whole themselves so that we can build something amazing.

And this whole thing gets so messy and it's so abused and it's so hard to talk about in a tiny little sliver like this.

But I'm really, really grateful for your call.

Thank you so, so much, Sarah.