Drew Burney

That's recently, that's what I've been thinking.

I was like, okay, I need to return this.

I need to turn this into a redemptive arc because right now it's a contamination one.

It's like, um, people leave, people aren't to be trusted.

I'm a very independent.

That's why I'm an independent person.

I was like, I can take care of myself because you can't rely on other people.

And so.

what do i replace that with what do i you know do i do i try to make a redemptive arc where it's like no no no those things happen to me like i did with the being poor and all that those things happen to me i survived them and i'll survive them again i can't just tell myself that obviously right and have it be true so i i don't know that's where i'm at right now i'm in the middle of one of these right now which is just ironic and yeah it's tough man

I'm going to work through it.

I know I will.

And that's the other thing is that I've decided like, no, I'm going to take this on and not turn away from it.

And I think that's one of the problems that people see that and they're like, no, I'm running right the hell back, which I almost did that with this time around too.

Yeah, it's been weird lately.

And I think I've kind of felt it building up a little bit.

And then this is all just kind of, you know, it's coming out now.

And I'm like, oh, shit.

This is like a realization a little bit.

I just don't know, like, oh, what's the new story I need to build around this?

What are the new beliefs and emotional patterns I want to have?