Elle

And then I was like, oh, I actually really like this girl.

And he wanted to sleep with her so badly, but she didn't want to sleep with him.

yeah she was we like we were we were like connected and you know i think she just was like she didn't know how to let him go down easy um so after like one failed threesome attempt where he like like we just did oral and he didn't get to fuck her like the next morning he went to work and then we stayed in bed and we ended up having sex

And I ate her out.

I was like a little bit more dominant with her in terms of like she was more reserved.

And I was like, I will go all the way with you.

And so she it like we had this fantastic like connection.

And when he came home and like found us like he could tell that we had sex.

He was incredibly upset and angry and just devastated that this girl that he really liked didn't want to sleep with him, but instead wanted to sleep with me.

And so that kind of was, I think that was the first point where I was like, okay, like the interest in women is not just like, like, it doesn't have to do with him.

it had to do with like what I wanted.

It was something that I didn't, I didn't need him to be there to be involved with women.

Yes, absolutely.

And then, so I, I knew that I wanted to get into kink.

So I did make a set life profile and,

as I think every single kinkster does.

It's very specific and it is flooded with mostly, I would say like once I put my like pictures up, I was just bombarded by old men who were just like trying to get, you know, with this 19 year old.

Yeah.

And so, yeah, I was getting all these messages and it very difficult, obviously, for me to engage into what like what was safe and what wasn't.

I actually was still in that relationship.