Emilie Kiser

But I think back and I had PTSD pretty much from so many things, but I

hearing helicopters still go over my house, I'm constantly like, oh, is that going to end up on the news?

It was completely invasive.

At the end of the day, it's hard hearing things

Anything that beats you up more than you're already beating yourself up.

Nobody could say.

I really try to not focus on the negative because nobody could say anything.

And I've heard a lot of things to Brady and I that would make us feel any more hurt than how we already feel not having him here.

Nothing.

When you lose your child, you really don't care about anything else besides doing your best to get through it.

And there's not even a through it.

You don't get through it.

Doing your best to move forward, I guess.

caring for your family.

Like I said, I have a younger son, so that was also just a huge and stays a huge motivation for me of I have to keep going for him.

I mean, just nobody could say anything that would ever hurt us more than we're already hurting, but it's hard, obviously.

I'm a human.

It's hard to hear people make their own assumptions, their own conclusions, draw their conclusions about Brady, draw their conclusions about me as a parent.

But at the end of the day, I just have to remember that these people don't know me.

And they're never going to know me on a deep level because that's impossible.