Emilie Kiser

Nothing's going to be able to heal you.

They're there so that they can teach you the best tools.

And I feel like that's where I really learned that it's never going to go away, that I have to just coexist with this forever, that the pain, the hurt, the heartbreak is never going to go away.

It's just going to hopefully become a little more manageable.

I can't shout out my family enough.

They truly are what have carried us through this.

They got us in with therapists, great grief therapists that specialize in loss and child loss.

We're in couples counseling weekly.

We've just been doing as much work as we can because there was nothing else we could do.

I give so much credit to anybody who works in that space because I cannot imagine the weight that they carry hearing the amount of things that they do.

the heartbreak, the stories.

I've talked to my husband about this before of I cannot imagine two parents coming into you telling you what they've been through and you having to try your best to either guide them together or help them heal a little bit, talk them through it, or if they choose to be a part, helping them through that in an amicable way.

That has to be one of the hardest jobs you guys are doing.

really important work.

I've had a couple moms that I've talked to that have been through some similar things and that has been helpful.

But at the same time, I think that really, unless you talk to someone who

that is going through the exact same thing at the level of exposure that we did.

It really just felt like there's nobody to talk to who is going to relate to what I'm going through right now, what we're going through, what Trig went through.

Like I just, it really felt impossible.

And so I really haven't gotten to a point yet where I've reached out to like support groups.