Emilie Kiser

And I would be lying if I said that I don't still have some joy and some happiness.

Like my younger son brings me so much joy and so much happiness.

But I'm also simultaneously sad and empty.

And that's why I just say you really have to learn and you quickly do learn that everything coexists.

And that's just the way it is.

I've had to set, kind of like I said at the beginning, a lot of boundaries of just really taking it day by day of whatever I'm comfortable sharing, I'll share.

And if I'm not comfortable, I'm not sharing it.

And it's hard seeing people genuinely say, oh, you're fine.

Oh, you've already gotten over it.

Oh, you seem like you're doing great.

It's like, this is my job.

I'm going through it like a job.

At any job, you have to show up.

You have certain expectations that have to be met.

And it's also a creative outlet for me.

So naturally, sometimes when I'm doing my job, I am in an okay headspace and I'm just doing my best to...

kind of distract myself and get through it but that is not a representation of my whole day or my grief social media shouldn't be anyone's representation of anything because at the end of the day it's always even if you share the good the bad the hard it's what you're choosing to share always

Unless someone had a 24-hour camera going, you'll just never understand what it's like inside someone's brain who's lost a child.

I also can't fault people for that because you're seeing what I'm choosing to show you.

And so I really do accept in a way and it's taken me time to...