Emma Chamberlain

Listen, I know that this sounds dramatic and this isn't how I exist all the time.

There are phases of my life where I have my anxiety under control.

I have my perfectionism under control.

I do find balance in my routine between, you

This is not a constant state of life for me.

And so there are times where I'm in a good place with it.

There are also times where I'm not.

And recently I found myself in a place where I was not.

I think too, going through my breakup,

kind of takes a lot of discipline to go through a breakup, takes a lot of mental strength.

And I noticed at least with me, the breakup kind of rattled me in such a way that I was putting so much of my mental energy towards dealing with the breakup and then in the challenges that come with that, that a lot of the things that I have to be mindful about with myself to keep under control ended up kind of going awry.

So my anxiety kind of got out of control.

My perfectionism kind of got out of control.

My control freak nature kind of got out of control.

My imposter syndrome, it's like going through a breakup will trigger those things anyway in people.

But because I'm somebody who naturally, I'm predisposed to experiencing those things anyway, it's like I feel like I fell into it worse than...

like even worse.

You know what I mean?

It was quite, it was quite the jumbled mess.

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