Emma Chamberlain

Like my identity failed.

feels different now because I'm an independent woman right now in a way that, you know, feels really real and really serious.

Whereas let's say I would like go to a coffee shop alone while I was in a relationship.

I was like,

Well, I don't care what anyone thinks of me because I have a boyfriend and I have great friends and I don't really care.

But see, now that I'm going out as a single woman, I'm like more aware of what say guys are thinking about me.

I'm like, do I seem like pathetic?

here alone or like boys judging me or do they find me to be demure and they like you know want to ask for my number like I think that's actually where the discomfort has stemmed from for me post breakup but as I'm repeating the action going out and doing shit alone anyway I'm slowly but surely feeling myself fall back into the swing of it and it's becoming like second nature again and

I will say, if you're finding a hard time motivating yourself to go out and do things alone, let this story motivate you, okay?

I, a few weekends ago, wanted to go out and do something, but all my friends were out of town.

I kid you not, every single friend.

And I was like, I could go out and hang out around town, shop around, get a coffee.

I could do that, but it's so much easier to just stay home and I don't know, maybe I could get some work done or something.

But I was like, but I'm too tired to get work done.

And it's the weekend and it's such a beautiful day out.

Like I probably should go out and do something.

But I was like, I feel kind of, I don't know.

I didn't feel super confident that day.

I was feeling kind of down in the dumps.

I was like, I don't know.