Emma Chamberlain

Is that I do wear glasses a lot.

And it does sort of weirdly feel like a protective mechanism.

Like I can't explain it, but it does feel sort of protective.

Like it spiritually is sort of like a shield.

It also is a wonderful accessory that really takes any outfit to the next level.

But it also is sort of a weird block.

Like it...

And the fact that he caught on to that was so bizarre to me.

And he was just talking about me as though he had me all figured out.

Saying that like I'm a hurt little girl on the inside, that's my inner child and that's why I cut all my hair off and have a pixie and that I'm not hurt anymore and that I can grow it out and be a beautiful woman.

To be honest, the thing about that too is that there is a bit of truth to that.

I think I've always, how do I put this?

I've always struggled with feeling... I've always felt like I'm not feminine enough because I'm very in touch with my masculine traits, if you will, and I always have been.

And I've always been weirdly self-conscious about that because it's not something I can control, you know?

Like, I am who I am because that's the other thing about me.

I am who I am.

Like, I...

I can't fake it.

And so when I am 100% myself, I am, you know, this particular combination of feminine and masculine traits, stereotypically, if you will.

And I've always been self-conscious about feeling like I'm not feminine enough for, say, like boys to like me or, you know, yet to be attractive to guys that I like.