Esther Falick

Like, why don't you trust me?

You know, like all this stuff.

And he's just like sitting there and taking it.

And I woke up and I felt this guilt.

I was like, oh my God, did my dad visit me just for me to like yell in his face?

But I was thinking more about it and I was talking about it with like one of my more woo-woo friends.

And she was like, no, no, no, like he wouldn't have come if he didn't know that that's what it was gonna be.

I needed it.

I needed the chance for that catharsis to say all those things with my full chest.

And now that I couldn't say it in life anymore, he came to me in a dream so that I could release, purge that.

So I was releasing that guilt of that feeling and starting to be like grateful for that.

I was like, wow, I think that he came just for that, you know?

And then I had my solo show and

at Joe's Pub last June for the first time.

And it was like a huge, huge moment.

And he never got to see me perform post-transition, which is a real shame because like... That was when you came alive.

Yeah.

If you thought I was like a good performer before, like wait until you see me free in my body.

Yeah.

You know?