Ethan Hawke

And finally, I just screamed.

I mean, I really did not know what else to do.

And I went into the monologue from the beginning.

Like a hurricane, I went into it and I

Came off stage just wildly embarrassed.

I was like, what happened?

What happened?

And after the show, Stopper told me, it was wonderful.

The way you started again.

I was like, well, it wasn't really wonderful.

I mean, it might have come across that way.

And I started realizing that if you are actually in the moment, you actually can't do anything wrong.

You really can't.

It's going to be fine because you're going to be living.

And it's this desire to be perfect that's stifling.

Yes.

And I think I was, as a young person, I was thinking that a certain, oh, discipline, religious discipline could lend order to my life.

You know, whether I loved a lot of the great Catholic writers and I love a lot of the great Buddhist writers and I was...

constantly hoping that their discipline could work for me and give me guidance and direction and orientation in my life.

But I kept struggling with it.