Faith

It was, it was really stressful.

No, no.

They, they tried to family stepped in and didn't allow it to happen.

And then the pastor threatened me when I was, I was like 12 or 13.

Okay.

Um, yeah, so it was, I've been working through that my whole life.

Um, I mean, I've been in therapy and I've, you know, I've, I've gotten really close, like,

I've worked through my faith and I've gotten to know who I am.

I have an identity now like in Jesus.

And so that's, that has helped tremendously.

So I feel like my, in my mind, I know like what truth is.

I know who I am, but it's like my body and my mind aren't the same person.

I don't feel safe ever.

No, now I'm close with my parents.

We've worked through a lot of things as a family and whatnot.

And they were kind of victims of some of this as well.

They really weren't perpetrators.

They were victims of this really bad person.

No, it was more, um,

So in this church environment, my best friend was actually abused by her dad, and the whole church defended the dad and wrote him love letters in prison, but the kids got taken away, and I lived with a lot of survivor's guilt with that because it always felt like it should have been me.