Fergus Crawley

I'm good at squatting.

And then I committed to a squatting-based sort of challenge at that time and spoke to Movember on the phone.

Said, this is what I want to do.

Put it out to my personal Facebook at the time.

Just said, this is what I'm raising money for men's mental well-being and suicide prevention.

That's what I said.

I said, I'm doing this for that.

And what really, really changed my perspective, and this is at the core of why I was in such a bad place in the first place.

was that friends from primary school, my dad's friends, people I'd lost connection with from school, uni, playing rugby growing up, whatever it might have been, reached out to me on Facebook Messenger at the time and just said, oh, it's really good that you're doing this, really appreciate it.

It's had an impact on my life or whatever it was.

And there were enough people in there that gave me confidence that the reason I'd suppressed the fact that I was suffering with my mental health as a young man and that I'd attempted suicide in 2016, not something I'd shared with anyone at that point,

it gave me the confidence to realize, oh, hang on, you are not the only person in the world that feels this way.

There was a big part of guilt as well, because I've had a great upbringing, parents still together, brother, friends, family that I got on with.

There was a big, big element of guilt where I felt pathetic for having had that great upbringing and all of these wonderful things, roof over my head.

People have got it much worse than me, but you feel this way.

And just having those messages from people when I first announced it on social media gave me the confidence to actually share I am the survivor of a suicide attempt with the world.

And that's where 2018, 2019, 2020, three big endurance challenges for November raised over a hundred thousand pounds, still working full time until 2021 when I sort of, the social media had grown as a result and we built from there.

But that's how I got into this world.

So it's quite nice to full circle eight years later and,

go back to a big charity, Men's Mental Wellbeing and Suicide Prevention focused project that's built on all of the previous six, seven years of experience that have come along the way where the focus has been a little bit more performance, content output, YouTube development rather than that specific focus