Fergus Crawley

mental well-being narrative.

It's always been a part of it.

But what I'm really excited about with this project is every pool in each city is private.

Other than in Liverpool, we're in open water.

We've got private cycle circuits and we've got private athletics tracks.

So anyone and everyone can come along for one length, one lap, whatever suits them at whatever pace and show up for the cause effectively because it's...

Yeah, it's a big day.

Ten years, it's kind of surreal.

And I think what's funny is I think back now with a rational mind to then with an irrational mind.

And it's... Yeah, I've been doing a lot of thought in the training, been ruminating on it a lot over the past three months because, I mean, you'll know, big endurance projects like this require a lot of time just doing the work in your own head.

And it's been a very positive experience for me personally, but it has been challenging sort of trying to unpack...

how I want to have an impact on this.

And in simple terms, I want this project to be something that if a 20 year old version of me had seen, I would have engaged in and it would have had a positive impact.

So that's how I'm trying to model the messaging, the narrative and the presentation of it.

Because when I was younger,

for whatever reason, I'd never had my dad tell me this is what a man is or anything like that, but I had a very binary definition of success and what it meant to be a man and feeling like I was failing those definitions nearly killed me.

How did you try to take your life?

So, a whole load of pills from a local drug dealer in Newcastle at the time and alcohol that I kind of guessed a dose based on internet searching and the dose wasn't high enough.

So, what's...

grim about that reality is when I came around, I was disconnected from body but connected with mind.