Fergus Crawley
๐ค SpeakerAppearances Over Time
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I could think but I couldn't really move.
I was in a puddle of my own vomit and the first thought I had was that I was an idiot because I'd failed.
Like the one initiative I'd taken to not feel this way hadn't worked, you idiot.
That was how I felt at the time.
And this is the stuff that scares me so much now because I didn't write a note or anything.
I didn't think about the consequences really.
I was slumped up against my bed and there were footsteps outside of the door afterwards.
And I was kind of there sort of...
Limp.
I wasn't completely incapacitated, but I wasn't moving well physically.
I was kind of in and out a little bit.
And the thoughts I do remember then were, they were all self-destructive.
It wasn't, you've made a mistake.
It was, you've done this wrong.
And it took a couple of days after that for me to start to see reality.
And it actually took... So I was fortunate enough to be a part of a documentary with Roman Kemp in 2021 called Our Silent Emergency.
And he was exploring why his friend Joe had died by suicide.
And I was the segment in that documentary as the survivor.
So he spoke to me about that.
And he wanted to, from my perspective, understand how I framed...