Fergus Farrell

But look, that's not something I worry about because I can't do anything about it, number one.

And number two is if I concentrate on that, it'll lead me down the wrong path.

Yeah.

And look, it was my own fault.

You know, one thing I thought, everybody worried about me up in Dublin because I was the person with the injury.

But who was looking after my kids and my ex-wife down in Galway?

Like nobody.

Because, you know, that's just the way it was.

And ultimately, when I got home, I had no more challenges left in my mind.

So my mind came very empty and I started filling up with so many negative thoughts.

Plus the medication was absolutely turning me into somebody I had no clue who I was.

But I was living it.

Yeah, even to this day, I look back and I go, man, I was such a different character.

But again, I needed that medication to do what I did.

If I didn't have that medication, I don't know whether I would have got back on my feet or would have been able to keep fighting.

So it was a necessary evil.

It did, yeah, unfortunately.

And down to myself, you know, because at the end of the day, my wife is a good person and she is still a good person.

She's a great mother.

So it is what happened.