Gemma Speck

Now it's just melancholy and just the deep anguish that comes with those shattered assumptions.

You realize truly how much you've lost.

You realize you're never going to get invited to those events with that person again.

You're never going to have the future of the wedding and the kids.

You're never going to get the job.

You're never going to get an answer about that.

You're never going to get your health back, the time back.

it's lost.

You really lost out.

The stage in the grief spaces is known as depression.

And we can't understate like how profound that really means, like what that really means.

All the adrenaline, all the investigating, all the thinking that anger is taking a physical toll

And we will feel that.

You might start to get sick a lot more often.

You might start to really lose interest in everything that you would normally love.

You might isolate as you mourn the end of this thing that you also feel equally like you shouldn't mourn because it ended so badly.

It's really tough.

to adjust to the beginning of a new chapter.

You didn't even want, you didn't want this chapter.

Now you have to do your best with what you were given because you weren't given a choice.