Hannah Murray

There was a moment where I remember being told I was being sectioned.

And I was in a place that looked like a hospital, smelled like a hospital.

Everyone had NHS lanyards around their neck.

I could kind of get these pieces of information online.

But it was all in a, I used all that information to support my own narrative.

And so when they said, when the word sectioned was used, I just remember kind of thinking, that doesn't really make sense.

That doesn't really fit in with what I understand is going on.

So it's sort of, I sort of put it to one side.

I was in hospital for three weeks and I'd say maybe

Maybe about a weekend, I kind of understood, oh, I'm actually in a psychiatric ward and I can't leave.

But it wasn't until months later, really, that those delusions finally left me.

It was just there was an understanding of this is the reality.

I don't understand why this is happening, but this must all be part of the plan to save the universe and for me to end up with Steve, if that makes sense.

I was 27, yes.

Were you scared?

There were moments of these experiences that were absolutely terrifying.

And there were moments of these experiences that were the most euphoric I have ever been in my entire life.

It's hard to describe to people how good it felt to feel that euphoric, that powerful, that purposeful, that kind of destined.

So I was very resistant to it early on.

In the first few days, I think there was a lot of spitting out pills and thinking people were trying to poison me.