Hannah Murray

My sense of time was really not clear by that point.

And I thought while I was in the cubicle that I was basically kind of like giving birth out of the top of my skull.

And I thought I was giving birth to a sort of new universe that would be completely a sort of paradise utopia.

Various people tried to kind of talk to me through the door.

And then I asked for Steve to come and talk to me.

And he did.

He persuaded me to come out of the cubicle.

And then him and the teachers from the course performed an exorcism on me.

Which at the time I remember thinking was really hilarious.

And...

And there were lots of layers to my understanding.

It's quite a difficult story to tell because of the state I was in.

But I kind of thought, oh, you know, me and Steve are soulmates.

We've saved the world.

No one else can know.

And so he has to pretend that I've been possessed and they're going to perform the exorcism to kind of cover up what's really happening.

And then some paramedics came and took me to hospital.

But I thought I was being taken to a palace where Steve was awaiting me and we would get married and become kind of, you know, king and queen of this new utopia.

Now, when I look at it, that doesn't add up.

But it felt so utterly real to me in those moments.