Hannah Murray

And I think it's

I just feel like there is still a big taboo around psychosis, bipolar, schizophrenia, other conditions that are less palatable and less kind of cozy and less solved by a hot bath or some mindfulness or some crystals or whatever your kind of solution or like talking therapies.

I had a friend say to me once when I was struggling with a kind of

minor manic episode and then going into a depression and he was like well we all have ups and downs we do yeah but you know i think it's just yeah i just i think there can be an erasure basically of these types of experiences that people still don't want to talk about still don't want to look at and and that again that are more common than we like to acknowledge i think a lot of the time so

Thank you.

It's really strange to hear someone else read it out loud.

It's quite nice.

It's something I think with bipolar, I think the fact that half of it is so seductively wonderful to experience until it's not.

makes it such a tricky condition to manage because you can feel a bit manic and think, well, this is great.

I'm like, I've got this energy.

I'm so creative.

I'm getting stuff done.

I feel amazing.

I can, I'm like talking more and telling all these great stories.

I'm so funny.

You know, you feel like you're firing on all cylinders and you think, well, just, I just want like 10% more of this.

And then you just want another 10% more.

And actually, you have to be really careful and cautious of your own positive feelings as much as your negative ones.

And I also had moments in the lead up to my episode where people were saying to me, you know, what's your secret?

Like, you seem so well.