Hannah Murray

But I think it's quite a dangerous road to go down if you think your creativity is entirely rooted in your mental health being quite unstable.

It came after it, but it was definitely related to it.

There's lots of different factors that led me to walk away from acting.

My life was very difficult to rebuild in the aftermath of what happened to me.

And I was also...

I mean, from being that high, the crash down into depression was so extreme and so severe.

And I mean, I write in the book about, you know, kind of being on a press tour and being so depressed, I can barely hold my head up.

It was really, really hard to get back to work.

I think if your job is in any way public facing, I mean, it's hard to do any job when you're depressed, of course, but it was this idea of being visible.

when I was that sad and all I wanted to do was hide away.

And I couldn't because I had contractual obligations to fulfill.

It was really hard to sort of sell myself, I suppose, and sell the projects that I was promoting.

And then it was even harder to audition and try and make myself look like an appealing prospect to work with.

And some of the medication I'd been put on had made me gain a lot of weight, which made me feel very self-conscious about being...

in an industry that has a lot of focus on what one's body looks like.

I did.

Charlie says after a year to the day, I flew to L.A.

to do that movie after I've been hospitalized to play Leslie Van Houten, who was a member of the Manson family.

And I was I was really, really scared to play that role, given what happened with Detroit.

I was quite superstitious about it, and I felt