Hannah Murray

Like I wanted to hold something of myself back.

Whereas when I had done acting jobs before, I was willing to give everything.

There was a, yeah, like a reckless giving of the self to everything.

And I didn't care if I came home from set covered in bruises.

I didn't care if I, you know, if I was using very dark memories.

I didn't, I was willing to just give everything to it, throw everything at it.

And on Charlie Says, I was a bit more wary of doing that.

And I don't know if this sounds strange, but it was much less interesting that way.

It wasn't fun, probably isn't the right word, but it wasn't fulfilling to me in the same way when I thought... And there are lots of actors who are very sensible and boundaried and do incredible work, but I guess I didn't know how to be one of them.

I'd moved to LA and it's quite hard to be...

It's a very industry-dominated town.

And I just had, you know, about a year of kind of really, really depressing auditions, which I didn't really want to get even.

I used to always be like flawless at remembering lines.

I was like forgetting lines in auditions, doing really bad auditions over and over again.

And I just hated every second of it.

And it didn't feel...

It didn't feel fun anymore.

It didn't feel creative anymore.

It didn't feel good anymore.

But I had this real feeling of like, well, everyone wants this.