Hannah Murray

It was always one or the other.

So I think the first one I took that was two days was around 700 pounds.

And then the week long course was over 2000 pounds.

The money was getting more as I went on.

I mean, I was told again about lots of different kind of magical beings, like mermaids were real, elves were real, fairies were real.

But I also, yeah, was learning how to perform the healing that I had received in Boston while I was filming Detroit.

This healing that I felt had kind of changed my life, changed everything.

And so it was really this idea that

this healing could help people, you know, I could do good in the world, I could help bring more good into the world and change people's lives in the way mine have been changed.

And that felt so seductive, you know, the idea that I could have a kind of bigger purpose, a higher purpose, and that my life could have this really significant meaning.

And the messaging that we were being given on this course was very much like we are here to like the purpose of this healing is to bring more light into the world and to ultimately kind of save the world and transform it into a.

utopian paradise and I thought that's exactly what I've always wanted to do is save the world how great who doesn't have that ambition on some secret level you know so it was really it really became over the course of that week each day more and more like this is what I was put on this earth to do this is what I need to be doing and was it at that point you were given sorry was it at that point you were given the magic wand

I was given a magic wand about halfway through the week.

It became, it was immediately incredibly important and powerful to me because as soon as I received it, I could hear what I thought was its voice speaking to me in my head.

So on the final day of the course, yeah, I really, really lost my mind.

My sense of reality completely crumbled.

And paramedics were called and I was taken to hospital and I was sectioned and I spent three weeks on a psychiatric ward.

So I thought that I was in the process of bringing this new utopian paradise reality to our planet.

I thought I was the saviour of the planet and I thought that everything had changed.

You know, we transitioned into this completely new world where everything would be perfect forever.