Hannah Murray

And I was sort of the queen of that world.

So that was my kind of major understanding of the world around me.

And then I'd also, by this point, I had met the man who was kind of in charge of this organization I'd gotten involved in.

And I thought that, you know, if I was the queen of this reality, then he was the king of this reality.

And we were soulmates and we had saved the world together.

And I thought we were kind of going to be married in this sort of divine union sort of thing.

Yeah, there are parts of the book that were incredibly difficult to write.

And really that this kind of section of it that we're talking about, which is kind of the climax, I guess, of the whole thing is me kind of really break it down and then going to hospital and then being in hospital.

It's really, really difficult emotionally to go back into those memories in order to be able to write about them.

And it's also quite difficult on a kind of writing level to express such a strange experience in a way that

I hope people will be able to understand what I was going through but it's very odd to describe.

No, no, not at all.

I mean, I think I was only in hospital for three weeks and I think real recovery takes a whole lot longer than that.

And so when I left the hospital, I was I was better.

I was more lucid.

I was no longer kind of.

a danger to myself and I knew more kind of like my own name, like who my friends and family were.

I understood that I had been sectioned, but my beliefs were still very much kind of the same.

as when I dented, I still thought, you know, I have this special destiny.

Maybe it hasn't quite happened in the way I originally thought, but it's definitely still happening.