Hannah Murray

And it took, you know, months for me to really shake those beliefs.

And I think recovery is not a linear, straightforward process.

And so I tried really hard to be honest about that in the book, that it was very kind of two steps forward, one step back for me.

And I think it is for a lot of people who go through something major.

It really did.

Yeah, it did explain quite a lot.

Yeah, I started seeing a psychiatrist in London after I left hospital, who I think in our first session, I sort of talked about, he knew what had happened to me very recently with the hospitalization.

But I also talked about my teens and my 20s.

And he was just like, this is textbook bipolar disorder.

And it was really eye-opening and it was kind of a relief, I think, to have that diagnosis, to have an explanation for having always felt like, I think there's something wrong with my mental health, but never feeling like I could really talk to anyone about it.

Having someone say, well, this is a diagnosis, this is an explanation for why you've been feeling the way you're feeling, why your mental and emotional landscape has been what it is.

I'd say I'd definitely hidden it from my parents.

And I'd hidden it, I think, from a lot of people.

And I was quite, you know, I was kind of, I guess, like high functioning, you know, I'd like, I'd gone to a really good university, I'd gotten good marks at school, I was having this successful acting career.

So I think a lot of people weren't maybe looking too far under the surface.

And I didn't always want to share how hard I was finding life.

But I did have close friends who knew that I struggled a lot with these highs and lows.

And there was a friend who had spoken to me kind of in 2016, I think, when this was starting to happen and unfold.

And she said, I think the highs are getting higher and

I think the lows are getting lower.