Hannah Murray

what had happened and why.

And I had the bipolar diagnosis, but that didn't explain that episode and the breakdown fully to me because it had been so extreme.

And the beliefs I'd had, I kind of couldn't fully shake them still.

And so I wanted answers of, I guess I wanted answers of a kind of mystical, magical nature still.

I wanted to understand it from that perspective.

And I had had it explained to me by the organization that they believed I had been possessed by a demon.

They had performed an exorcism on me before the paramedics came.

So I wanted to understand that explanation better.

And I thought if I take more courses, maybe I'll understand more deeply.

Maybe I'll finally get these answers.

And ultimately, that was what kind of kept me attached to that group for a bit longer, really.

Yeah, that was really, really hard to do.

It was really hard to go and be on and do interviews and be in front of the camera when I was going through the kind of the most difficult year of my life, really.

I found it immensely challenging and also quite surreal, I suppose, as well.

I don't think it was a super deliberate choice because I auditioned for it and I got offered the part and it happened to be the first job I was offered after what had happened to me.

I was never the kind of actor who could sort of pick and choose from a plethora of roles.

I was just that I wanted to work.

I wanted to get back to work.

And it felt very strange that that was my first job back and ultimately kind of one of my last jobs really in my acting career.

But I think I got a lot out of that experience and the research that I did and coming to understand like the Leslie, the woman I played, like the way that she was kind of indoctrinated into the Manson family.