Harry Garside

And I just think that I think...

If any people listening to this, just ask yourself questions.

Because there's a lot of things that I can't remember from my childhood, but just trying to recognize patterns.

And patterns are, oh, I don't trust people with money, or there's so many other patterns in my life that I've probably continuously ran.

And it's like, okay, identifying that, does that serve me?

sometimes it does sometimes it doesn't okay can i evolve that and just trying to be conscious of how to how i am moving forward when i'm put in an environment where someone close to me is where my money am i making better decisions how i speak am i being defensive like that's on me the you know the agency is on me and the responsibility is on me to fix that and navigate that rather than being in fight or flight or panic um

my whole life you know because then i'll pass it on to my kids and then they won't trust people with money and they won't be good probably at business or you know certain things so it's my responsibility to do the work um on self and for things that you know i had no control over under the age of 10 i had no control over that but it's up to me to fix it it's very interesting the uh the amount of awareness you have about yourself being a boxer you're not the average boxer you know that right yeah

Yeah, for sure, for sure.

Yeah, I just think that they're – I don't know about you, but I think one of the key things that separated me and my brother, me and my oldest brother, we shared a lot of common similarities.

Like, you know, if I was born in a different life, there's a fair chance I would have been a drug addict or, you know, gone to prison just like he did.

And I think one of the key differences is I feel –

immense guilt and shame for things that I do.

So when I have acted poorly or when I've said things poorly or when I have treated someone not well, you know, because there's a beast inside of me that sometimes wins.

And when I say something that I fucking regret or when I, you know, and then I really feel that shame and guilt for that.

And I think I very much just try my best not to feel that going forward, you know, and I don't always win, you know, but I think the older that I've got, I've become way better at winning the battle more often than not.

Knowledge.

Yeah, but when you're younger, you have no, things happen, you're like, oh, fuck.

Oh, no, absolutely.

Yeah, yeah, absolutely.

But I, as I said... Well, I thank you for... Of course.