Hayley Vernon

I'm like, I'd never become an escort.

That's like selling your soul.

And like what we're saying about that natural progression, like look where I ended up.

And it wasn't, I don't think it was one thing, but I can remember the point where the penny dropped.

So I went to London the week before I decided to pull the pin and

And for months following, I had started stuttering when I was speaking because I was thinking so much about what I was saying and I was just anxious and all this stuff had started to bubble to the surface.

And I was sitting in a room with two really well-known porn stars from the US that had flown to the UK.

I was in London at the time and I was sitting there and I was having a discussion with a woman.

She was...

48, 50.

And I'd actually had discussions with people prior about what I would do if I was to leave the adult industry.

And I started using language like, oh, like, what else am I supposed to do?

And, you know, so it obviously started taking a clear hit on my confidence and what I was able to do.

And, you know, people start saying, oh, you're just an escort, you're just this, you're just that.

You start to believe it, right?

So when I was on this set and

This lady was speaking to me and she was late 40s and she just, it was so evidently clear that she was stuck and that she was, you know, obviously like very glamorous and everything.

But when she was talking to me, she was talking about like that she never got to have kids and just different things throughout her life.

And I just remember in that instance thinking, I need to get out of here and I need to do it now because if I don't, I'm going to be hurt.

And I knew it was going to be hard.