Hunter Biden

Damn.

And so, you know, and I grasped towards one thing that was not in a nefarious, prurient way in any way to someone that was the nearest thing to what my brother was.

And I had to grasp for each other.

And my addiction completely, 100%, fucked that up.

And it was awful.

and um so i do know that uh beau's death didn't make me an addict but um

But by my own actions, by the circumstances that I found myself in, by the depth to which I didn't think that there was a way out, it certainly was a factor in what sent me down a rabbit hole that I'd never gone before, which was completely wanting to disappear from the face of the earth.

It was awful.

You know, I think that people have this vision of, you know, that it's kind of funny when Marjorie Taylor Greene, like, shows pictures of me and, you know, naked and, you know.

By the way, 90% of which is like, aren't selfies.

People taking pictures of me passed out in the bathtub with a crack pipe.

You know, I wasn't taking pictures of myself, you know, remotely while I was, you know, passed out.

And, you know, but whatever the case may be, is I don't do anything but cry when I think about those times.

Not for anybody but myself.

I mean, it was truly demoralizing.

I mean, I am...

what people i don't think fully comprehend about addiction if they're not the direct addict that sometimes can take you to a place in which all you're doing is thinking about getting high or thinking about how you're going to get high thinking about how you're going to cover up getting high and thinking about how you're going to come down from getting high

And then it becomes just this round-the-clock thing in which it's not even about getting high.

It's about not dying.

It's literally about the feeling that if I don't... I cannot get up from this bed unless somebody hands me a drink in order for my body to function.