Jake Haendel

Ich bin ein bisschen ehrgeizig, was da los ist. Und ich erinnere mich, dass mein Therapie-Team meinte, es ist alles gut. Du wirst hier immer besser werden. Also habe ich nicht mehr darüber nachgedacht. Und dann war es Juli 24th, 4 Uhr in der Nachmittagszeit. Leventon. Jake, I have an ambulance transferring you by stretcher 810 tomorrow morning. Get packed up. I'm like, damn. No notice, you know.

Ich bin ein bisschen ehrgeizig, was da los ist. Und ich erinnere mich, dass mein Therapie-Team meinte, es ist alles gut. Du wirst hier immer besser werden. Also habe ich nicht mehr darüber nachgedacht. Und dann war es Juli 24th, 4 Uhr in der Nachmittagszeit. Leventon. Jake, I have an ambulance transferring you by stretcher 810 tomorrow morning. Get packed up. I'm like, damn. No notice, you know.

Out of the blue. It's just how it goes.

Out of the blue. It's just how it goes.

Western Mass State Hospital is calling me and telling me. And then Eli, who's now become like helping me manage everything. Being like, yeah, we haven't received a single payment check in 15 months of you being here. And you owe us like $20,000. We're like, oh shit.

Western Mass State Hospital is calling me and telling me. And then Eli, who's now become like helping me manage everything. Being like, yeah, we haven't received a single payment check in 15 months of you being here. And you owe us like $20,000. We're like, oh shit.

She's unwilling to sign anything, communicate. And Eli tried texting with her. Oh, I have that text. Cool, calm, collective Eli writes out this text. thoughtful, rational text. I needed a response from her, just being like... Nicht, fuck you, aber ziemlich nah dran. Ich dachte, so viel für Rational. Ich sagte Levinson, wir brauchen einen Lehrer. Sie ist unwillig, uns zu kommunizieren.

She's unwilling to sign anything, communicate. And Eli tried texting with her. Oh, I have that text. Cool, calm, collective Eli writes out this text. thoughtful, rational text. I needed a response from her, just being like... Nicht, fuck you, aber ziemlich nah dran. Ich dachte, so viel für Rational. Ich sagte Levinson, wir brauchen einen Lehrer. Sie ist unwillig, uns zu kommunizieren.

Das sollte mein Payment sein. Und dieser Payment wird an die Krankenhäuser geworfen. Levinson meinte, okay, es gibt eine Organisation, die Justice Bridge heißt.

Das sollte mein Payment sein. Und dieser Payment wird an die Krankenhäuser geworfen. Levinson meinte, okay, es gibt eine Organisation, die Justice Bridge heißt.

My personal belongings. Mainly my mother's stuff.

My personal belongings. Mainly my mother's stuff.

Musik

Musik

Fully aware of pain. I was in constant crisis, and I felt everything. And not only did I feel everything, I was hypersensitive to everything. A nurse who walked by in a speeding manner in the breeze would burn my skin.

Fully aware of pain. I was in constant crisis, and I felt everything. And not only did I feel everything, I was hypersensitive to everything. A nurse who walked by in a speeding manner in the breeze would burn my skin.

I went through a couple months of definitely freaking out and pain and talking to myself. And that's how it really began, the talking to myself out of boredom. What do you do when you're locked in your own body? You got no one to talk to, no one to calm you down. You can only do so many math problems.

I went through a couple months of definitely freaking out and pain and talking to myself. And that's how it really began, the talking to myself out of boredom. What do you do when you're locked in your own body? You got no one to talk to, no one to calm you down. You can only do so many math problems.

I remember it really started when people would come into my room, like nurses and medical professionals, and I would start talking to them as if they could hear me, and then I would, like... say the sarcastic answer like as if they were replying to me and I would just have these like dumb conversations I know it sounds crazy and then I was thinking about

I remember it really started when people would come into my room, like nurses and medical professionals, and I would start talking to them as if they could hear me, and then I would, like... say the sarcastic answer like as if they were replying to me and I would just have these like dumb conversations I know it sounds crazy and then I was thinking about