Jake Haendel

And she was like, you're such a hypocrite, asshole. How are you going to tell me? I can't. That's unfair. I want to understand why you're so wrapped up in this. I want to do it. And I'm like, no, I'm not giving it to you. And she's like, fine, I'll go get it myself. And I'm like, no, don't fucking do it. It sucks. I wish I never did this shit. It is so addicting. I really wanted to not allow this.

And she was like, you're such a hypocrite, asshole. How are you going to tell me? I can't. That's unfair. I want to understand why you're so wrapped up in this. I want to do it. And I'm like, no, I'm not giving it to you. And she's like, fine, I'll go get it myself. And I'm like, no, don't fucking do it. It sucks. I wish I never did this shit. It is so addicting. I really wanted to not allow this.

But I just remember I threw the bag on the table and I was like, fine, do it. I'm out of here. And I went to a different room in the house and she did it the entire week.

But I just remember I threw the bag on the table and I was like, fine, do it. I'm out of here. And I went to a different room in the house and she did it the entire week.

it was like day four or something she woke up and felt dope sick really dope sick she woke me up crying and she was like i'm shaking this stuff is so bad i fucking hate you i want to leave i want to get out of here i fucking hate you purple i mean I'm like the worst. The worst thing with that drug is introducing someone to it.

it was like day four or something she woke up and felt dope sick really dope sick she woke me up crying and she was like i'm shaking this stuff is so bad i fucking hate you i want to leave i want to get out of here i fucking hate you purple i mean I'm like the worst. The worst thing with that drug is introducing someone to it.

I mean, even as someone who sold it, I mean, I never sold someone who wasn't addicted for financial gain. There's this cinematic picture in my head. There's always that depiction of that scumbag dude who probably at one point was a decent person, probably still is. But these drugs cloud you. And that was my first experience feeling like...

I mean, even as someone who sold it, I mean, I never sold someone who wasn't addicted for financial gain. There's this cinematic picture in my head. There's always that depiction of that scumbag dude who probably at one point was a decent person, probably still is. But these drugs cloud you. And that was my first experience feeling like...

I'm that dude now that has introduced someone to the most addicting substance on planet Earth, and it happens to be my new wife. I felt so small, so horrible. God almost wanted to tell her mom. I was worried that she would continue, honestly. And once you're addicted, you're addicted. I mean, there's no one in the world that could stop you. She would be out there going to Worcester by herself.

I'm that dude now that has introduced someone to the most addicting substance on planet Earth, and it happens to be my new wife. I felt so small, so horrible. God almost wanted to tell her mom. I was worried that she would continue, honestly. And once you're addicted, you're addicted. I mean, there's no one in the world that could stop you. She would be out there going to Worcester by herself.

And then I'd be in a position where I don't want her to get a hot dose.

And then I'd be in a position where I don't want her to get a hot dose.

That's the shit you OD from.

That's the shit you OD from.

And maybe I was wrong, but I always felt like I had a good head and my shoulders even wrapped up in this. I never wanted to really hurt anyone like that. I knew what was too far. I think this roots from my depression and the way I kind of like... And not the way I was brought up, but the way I kind of dealt with things on my own and grew up handling my grief.

And maybe I was wrong, but I always felt like I had a good head and my shoulders even wrapped up in this. I never wanted to really hurt anyone like that. I knew what was too far. I think this roots from my depression and the way I kind of like... And not the way I was brought up, but the way I kind of dealt with things on my own and grew up handling my grief.

I just was like, what I'm doing is hurting me and like only me. And I'm okay with that. You can definitely say, and I'll take it. You know, you were a drug dealer. You contributed to this huge problem. Which I definitely did, but I have to say some of the most hardcore people I knew, people that I would say, woo. I'm not sure if they'll ever get clean.

I just was like, what I'm doing is hurting me and like only me. And I'm okay with that. You can definitely say, and I'll take it. You know, you were a drug dealer. You contributed to this huge problem. Which I definitely did, but I have to say some of the most hardcore people I knew, people that I would say, woo. I'm not sure if they'll ever get clean.

Honestly, I'm one of these people that I know I said when I have a kid, but after two miscarriages, I wasn't sure if I'd ever get clean. But a lot of these people that I would be like, woo, they're never going to get, you know, they didn't. So, yeah, it's rare, though. I was very worried for my wife at this time. Luckily, she just didn't do it again and hated me even more. What?

Honestly, I'm one of these people that I know I said when I have a kid, but after two miscarriages, I wasn't sure if I'd ever get clean. But a lot of these people that I would be like, woo, they're never going to get, you know, they didn't. So, yeah, it's rare, though. I was very worried for my wife at this time. Luckily, she just didn't do it again and hated me even more. What?