Jake Humphrey

even though my aim is to go out, work really hard and provide for my family, it's, that's not really, it is what I'm doing, but it's also not what they need.

It's not what she needs.

She needs me to be a present father and, you know, somebody that is around and on hand to be with the kids and to help her, which of course is something that my dad would have just never, never done because he's in the office.

He

working he's not there that's not his role and would never have felt bad about that yeah because it was required it was the necessity but nobody would have even batted an eyelid yeah he was a bad parent for example and i'm not saying that you know anyone's suggesting that i'm a bad parent but it is quite difficult when you know i'll i'll go out in the morning and i'll train really early and then we'll go and work all day and you know you're trying your absolute best to find ways to earn as much money as possible you know so that we can all have a free and amazing life and you come home and your wife's still out working

So it's kind of like, right, okay, well, I'm on kids duty in Bath, and all that's fine.

That's not a problem at all.

I love spending time with my kids, but it's kind of, we're both doing two big roles, and it can feel like quite a lot.

So it's just interesting.

The next question is,

How good have you become at hiding your struggles?

I mean, that's probably pretty good for you, Matt.

Pretty good for me, I'd say.

The strange thing about the drinking as well is that when you get to the stage when you know it's wrong or like socially acceptable and you do it anyway, that's when you're in, for me, like the really murky territory of I kind of really feel like a drink, but I'm not going to I'm not going to.

express that to anyone because i know it's quite early and i wouldn't want them thinking i'm drinking so i'll just have the drink and then i'll yeah hide it i went through a lot of that yeah like i'd walk past the pub and it would be you know just pop in quickly have a quick drink boom and then just and then i'd kind of just ignore the fact that i'd had a drink and then you know that might happen again

And then, you know, later, when you're with your friends, it's like, oh, shall we have a drink?

And then you've got away with it.

So I used to do that all the time.

There'd be more drinking than there actually was on paper.

And then all of a sudden you're like a bit pissed, but nobody else is pissed.