Jake Humphrey

Walked in and I was sober at the time.

I had drank the night before, but I'd purposefully not drank that day just so that I could be sober for the meeting so that he could report back to John that there's absolutely nothing wrong with me and that I'm fine.

And I sat down and he goes, God, you reek of booze.

And I was like...

I haven't had a drink today.

And he was like, when was the last time you drank?

And I was like, last night.

And he was like, whiskey, was it?

I was like, yeah.

And he was just like, God, as soon as you leave, I'm going to have to open the windows here so that the next patient doesn't think I've been drinking.

And he was quite horrible to me initially for the first 15 minutes, quite aggressive on how disgusting I am.

And I can remember thinking like... And was that a tactic?

Yeah.

Well, no, I think he probably could smell whiskey on my breath, but like, you know, he did go quite hard.

I can remember thinking like, it was a big mix of like, you know, do I just sack this guy off or should I take on board that maybe this is how people see me?

And it was the last, you know, I left and we agreed that I wasn't going to drink for seven days and that I'd see him again at midday on, you know, next Wednesday.

And I left and I thought, you know,

do I just do I not care about that or like do people see me that way like when I go for a job or a meeting like do people just think I reek of whiskey and look like a fucking loser you know and I thought well just just in case let's do the let's do the week did the week and ended up doing six months and you know we became very very close I even brought a friend of mine who had a drinking problem

to him as well and he went sober for six months like it was a really positive time you know great my biggest one was I thought it was more than just a conversation I thought it was going to feel like a huge thing yeah and I remember walking out of the first one thinking well that's weird I've just had a chat for an hour and a half yeah surely this doesn't lead to anything

and I like the fact that it felt like nothing does that make sense it's nice it doesn't feel like a big thing in your week it's just like alright I've got a few meetings there's no diagrams have a game of tennis have a bit of therapy then have some dinner it feels like nothing in the nicest possible way final question final question here we go how do you talk to your kids especially your sons about their feelings and what do you want them to know that you weren't taught