Jake

So yeah, I mean, I thought about it dozens of times a day because it gave me control.

And...

And then she's dealt with this injury for the past, you know, at least five years.

I absolutely have the insight now.

And I know, you know, there's gotta, you know, I, I know plenty of guys who are going through it.

And that was a really hard thing to deal with.

I mean, we went through it.

And looking back, most of it was my fault.

And unfortunately I've got to sit here and know that that's going through their head.

And I just couldn't realize it because, again, I was completely consumed by my injuries.

Cause it, you know, it went through mine and thank goodness the voice of reason came through at the, at the last second and was like, uh, pretty much said, you know, your family, you will destroy your family if you do this.

And she stuck out through all of it.

And we're doing amazing now.

But every molecule turned into her love.

And yeah,

And...

That was enough for me to simultaneously make the decision that first of all, I'm not doing this, and second of all, I'm not gonna be this miserable burden, so I gotta pick myself up off the mat, and I've gotta get better.

I mean, I just, I wish everybody could experience that.

Cause that like my wife, when I, like when I say she's my whole world or she's my everything, I mean that from the bottom of my heart because that's what I experienced that day.

So then I start to come out of it.