Jake

I wrote down divine femininity.

Sleep medication, which made me sleepwalk, so had to get off that.

Like it showed me what women are.

So like, I grew up with all kinds of strong women in my life.

I tried

traditional therapy, EMDR therapy, psychedelic assisted therapy with psilocybin, which is magic mushrooms, which that was the only thing that gave me any relief at all.

I've always loved and respected the hell out of my grandma, my mom, my sister, my wife later in life, obviously.

So I'm not sure why it chose to show me this, but I'm eternally grateful it did.

And it's kind of why I got pushed towards this is because that wasn't a lasting relief.

I love my place in the world.

I love being a man, a protector.

But for the first time in years, I had a couple of days where I didn't have a headache.

I like that.

I enjoy it.

But I can never experience what femininity or being a woman is because of that.

I could sleep and I felt okay.

But I mean, on top of everything else, I already kind of mentioned it, but I went to a three-week outpatient clinic at a brain institute with the most amazing doctors in the world, the most amazing people that I'm extremely grateful for.

And the universe pulled me back in, and it showed me that.

It showed me what the pure essence of bringing life into the world is.

It showed me the power to uplift others.